Sweet Relaxation




Running my fingers through his blonde hair.
Playing with his bushy beard.
While laying on his chest.
Sweet smell of his body wash.
Relaxation.
I am paralyzed.
I could stare at him all day.
Then he would began to wonder if I was going crazy.

I sit an think I can't without this man.
I don't see how I did.
My backbone. I once ripped it from myself.
From us as a whole.
I took his puzzle piece an destroyed it.
How did I move, cope, how did we get this far. Children an I.

Watching him through the years. To respect my backbone I had to see through his eyes. Walk in his shoes.
He must of felt alone, but in a different way than I was did when my backbone was there.

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